ये दिल ही तो है

बेफिक्र बेपरवाह 

हँसता गुदगुदाता

मेरा मसख़रा 

ये दिल ही तो है   

सपनों से उलझता 

हुनर को ढूँढता 

उन्मुक्त आवारा 

ये दिल ही तो है 

पथराई आँखों में 

उमीदों के सागर में 

डूबता तैरता 

ये दिल ही तो है

खुद टूट कर भी

जिन्दगी से जुड़ता

एक सिर्फ बहादुर 

ये दिल ही तो है 

क्यूँ न ख्याल करूँ मैं 

नादानों  कि भीड़ में 

समझदार बेचारा 

ये दिल ही तो है 

                                  -- प्रियाशी 

Discover You

Winter, 12 at midnight received a call. It was silence on the other side. I questioned, what happened? The silence continued, I took a deep breath and asked where are you? She answered, “At the top of her building”. My next question was what are you planning for? She said she wants to die. I asked her a favor if she could postponed her plan for an hour and meanwhile if she could talk. She agreed to that. I initiated the conversation reminding college days, how we met for the first time, She belongs to a non Hindi family so she hardly understood our talks. I taught her Hindi and she taught me hers, with many likes and dislikes we became friends. She was beautiful, fun loving, attractive and confident, unlike her I was fatso, reserved, less talkative however ever smiling. She always used to say that I have solutions of all her problems maybe that were the reason she called me in such an odd situation. Though we don’t chat very often however friends are always a call away, she said. I nodded yes. It has been a quarter; I had received any call from her. I was curious and restless to uncover the mystery however I didn't ask her as she was crying, crying and crying. She said she was in a relationship and one unpleasant day the guy walked out from her life without any reasons. She had tried many a times however the call was unanswered. My question to her was to justify attempting suicide. She said she is suffering from Depression – Anxiety and/or panic attacks – Sleeplessness – Shame and guilt – Difficulty concentrating – Fatigue or loss of motivation – Feeling betrayed and/or violated – Feeling powerless, helpless, or out of control – Loss of confidence and self-esteem – Withdrawal and isolation. My question was still unanswered, why she had made such furious decision? What she was talking about, all those were emotions and could be controlled. She took a breather and asked how? I suggested her to forgive him. She was shocked and awarded me with plenty of unpleasant words beep….beep….beep……and we had instituted a long silence for couple of minutes. It was 2 AM now. I guess she had believed me more than she was hurt. She asked whether he would come back if she forgives him. I said no. She was quite however I could hear the question, then why? My friend would definitely be back, I mentioned. We paused for some time and then she replied and was confident. Now my question changes to why does she want to live?  She was again speechless. I forced her to speak, she had given so many good for nothing reasons to die at least she could give one important reason to live. She always wanted to be a theater artist, she continued. We smiled and I guess discovered our answer. You cannot win every game and similarly cannot lose all either. It is very important to understand we can experience perfections in work however not in personality. We are humans so as do mistakes, learn to forgive. It was now 4:30 AM. The dark night had passed, she said. “Good Morning”, I greeted. To lighten the situation and to be more confident, I requested her not to go for high jump from the building; else cops would arrest me as a last person to chat with. We laughed and laughed and laughed. It has been now more than 2 years of this incident. She has joined a theater group and yes, she found her soul mate and gets settled in USA. The morning has a message, no matter how dark the night is, its morning is certain. Present lifestyle fosters, how I would be happy however the question is who you are? Please take out your time from processed lifestyle and "Discover You". The happiness is just around the corner. 

Priyashi

Are We Modern ??

Are we actually a part of the modern society? What does modern signifies? The literally meaning of modern is most up to date that could be techniques, ideas, thoughts, culture anything. Rather it has been seen that we are a part of affluent society however is not Modern. What is the difference?  Over the decades we have been experienced changes in normal days and that are good and bad. The justification is individual and far from veracity. 

In present scenario if any teenager has been questioned about his/her future aspirations, the answer would be a successful person and if the question specifically asked what does success means to? Most of the common inputs would be money and fame and more precisely if asked why money is so important, an obvious statement - enjoying life - night parties, new gadgets and accessories, Boyfriends, Girlfriends made an entry hoping to buy happiness. If the same question has been asked to the youth, the answer would be career focused and if the question specifically asked what is a set career? Most of the entries would be money and status in the society and more precisely if asked why money is so important, a general outcome would be personal attainments for having own house, car, onsite vacations with family, the reason is same, the hope for buying happiness. To the third kind if the same question has been asked what are parent’s aspirations? The answer would engage education to their offspring’s in top schools, utmost fulfillment of family desire and a secure retirement plan, the reason is one - buying happiness. 

By what we are influenced – one specific society or a modernization? 

It is a myth that accepting everything new is modernization. Modernization is the adaption and implementation of most up to date techniques, ideas, thoughts, culture and anything which talks about the changes for upliftment individually or in society and hence a society which satisfies the inference can be experienced as a modern society.

Here are some questions to be valued - 
Modern thoughts - Are we cultivating new ideas or are we following new trends to buy individual or societal happiness? 
Modern Education – Are we focusing on skills and knowledge to be enhanced or are we aiming at top notch schools and colleges name to be shown in pedigree? 
Modern Women - Working and leading her life independently has been categorized one of the valuable factor as Modern women however it has been proven in most cases that present women are so working and not has choice to lead her life independently. 
Are we encouraging or accepting women ideas, willingness and desire or are we allowing or exploring them limited?  
Modern Culture – Are we modifying our moral values and traditions with time or are we following so called developed culture? 

For what I believe most of us agree with next question. We are influenced by affluence which is far away from the point of concern. On the morality ground it is the responsibility of the modern citizen to construct the type of society where to live in, and it can only be seen in practice when we identify the difference and rub. It is needed to be significantly implemented to have a developed society. So think before you tag in. - Are We Modern?

Priyashi

इंतज़ार

ये डर भी मेरा

ये स्याह भी मेरी

फिर भी बुझती साँसों को  

जीवन का इंतज़ार क्यूँ है 

ये शोर भी मेरा 

ये घुटन भी मेरी 

फिर भी बेजान पुतलों को 

एहसास का इंतज़ार क्यूँ है 

ये दाँव भी मेरा 

ये झिझक भी मेरी

फिर भी लड़खड़ाते कदमों को 

ठहराव का इंतज़ार क्यूँ है 

ये अक्स भी मेरा 

ये धड़कन भी मेरी 

फिर भी अस्तित्व के मोहर को 

मुखौटों का इंतज़ार क्यूँ है 

ये विकल्प भी मेरा 

ये तपन भी मेरी 

फिर भी सुकून-ए-ज़िन्दगी को 

प्यार का इंतज़ार क्यूँ है

                                           -- प्रियाशी

कहती है बेटी !

माँ ! ओ माँ उठो ना

आज बात नहीं करोगी मुझसे 

तेरे अंदर से बोल रही हूँ  - मैं "तेरी रानी बेटी "

तू रोज़ मुझे दुनिया से परिचय कराती है 

आज भी कुछ बताओ ना 

तेरी बात सुनके बहुत अच्छा लगता है

माँ ! मैंने तो अभी से सपने बुन लिए है 

तेरा नाम हमेशा रोशन करुँगी,

तेरी परछाई हूँ ना !

माँ ! ओ माँ तुम चुप क्यूँ हो 

आज तुम इतनी उदास क्यूँ हो 

मेरी बात तो सुन रही हो ना  - मैं "तेरी लाडली बेटी "

तूमने तो मेरा नाम भी सोच लिया था 

आज भी मुझे पुकारो ना 

मुझे तेरे साथ होने का यकीन होता है

माँ ! तेरे' गर्भ में तो महफूज़ हूँ 

क्या बाहर भी ऐसी ही रहूँगी 

मैं लड़की हूँ ना !

माँ ! हाँ बोलो मैं सुन रही हूँ

अरे ! तुम तो रो रही हो,

तेरे दर्द को महसूस कर सकती हूँ - मैं "तेरी बहादुर बेटी"

मुझसे तो सच बोल सकती हो तुम 

आज ये क्या कह रही हो माँ 

ये मैं हूँ, तेरी गुडिया, तेरा सहारा 

तुमने ही तो मुझसे कहा था 

मेरे सपनो को पूरा करोगी 

अब हिम्मत तो मत हारो ना !

माँ ! मैं तेरी आँखों से देख रही हूँ 

तुम इस दुनिया से दुखी हो ना 

मेरे लिए असुरक्षित समाज से तड़प रही हो 

लेकिन मेरा अस्तित्व गलत तो नहीं

माँ ! मुझे जीवन दो 

मुझे नाम से पुकार लो 

कहती है बेटी - मुझे अपना लो  

मैं लड़की हूँ ना 

                                         -- प्रियाशी

जी चाहता है

ना जाने क्यूँ इन लम्हों को  

आज नाम देने को जी चाहता है

नासमझ क्यूँ दिल मेरा

आज ख्वाबों में ही जीना चाहता है 

  

मेरे रूठ जाने भर से जो हो नमी  

उस मीठे तकरार को जी चाहता है 

मेरे आ जाने भर से जो हो ख़ुशी

उस लम्बे इंतज़ार को जी चाहता है

हर उड़ान की पहुँच मुमकिन हो

उस आवारेपन को जी चाहता है  

जज्बातों की मासूमियत जिन्दा हो

उस अपनेपन को जी चाहता है

जहाँ अनजान ना हों रिश्तें 

उस पहचान को जी चाहता है 

जहाँ अरमानों की ना हो किश्तें 

उस मुकाम को जी चाहता है 

                                   -- प्रियाशी 

एक फ़िक्र

एक एहसास एक सूनापन 

एक दिलासा एक अपनापन

दिल टटोला तो महसूस हुआ

ये थी उनकी फ़िक्र 

ख्वाबों की गलियारों में 

अपने आशियाने में 

हर एक ख्वाहिश को 

उम्मीदों से संजोने की है फ़िक्र 

जीवन का रचा हुआ ये खेल 

दो अजनबियों का ये कैसा मेल 

रिश्तों के ऐसे हर डोर को 

प्यार से बाँधने की है फ़िक्र 

सपने टूटे भी तो हारूंगी नहीं  

हौसला छुटे भी तो गिरूंगी नहीं 

विपरीत परिश्थितियों को भी 

जीवन से फिर जोड़ने की है फ़िक्र 

                                                --- प्रियाशी